Tuesday, August 2, 2011

Life's A Beach

So, the past couple of days, I've been thinking about my big move to Florida (4 days! Ah!), and not just in terms of my job at Disney. I've also been thinking about the fact that I will finally be an hour away from the beach. I have always loved the beach and beach life. It's so laid back and relaxing....completely opposite from my life now. There's something so therapeutic about sitting out on the sand and listening to the waves crash on the shore.

I've spent quite a bit of time (time I should be using to pack....but oh well) looking at beach pictures on tumblr. They just make me more excited about getting to be close to my piece of paradise.

Source: burningwithapassi00n

Source: Summer in Miami
Source: Brunette Summer
I need the sun, the sand, and the ocean now, please.

Monday, June 27, 2011

Bury My Heart At Wounded Knee

Charles Eastman: Senator, please sit. Sir, if every individual were taken personally under your care, as was my good fortune, I admit, the outcome might be what you seek. But I am not the example you held up to The Friends of the Indian. I am the example of nothing. I simply do not see how placing each Indian man on a desolate, 160-acre parcel of land is going to lead his children to medical school.
Henry Dawes: It will, in time. But first, this must pass. Or I guarantee you, destitution is all the Sioux will ever know. I have many opponents, Charles, in the press, in Congress...
Charles Eastman: You have an opponent before you, sir.

First of all, if you haven't seen the movie Bury My Heart At Wounded Knee, find it and watch it.  It's about the events leading up to the Wounded Knee Massacre; the U.S. government taking land and basically stripping the culture away from the Sioux Indians. The movie is based on the book of the same name by Dee Brown. I have the book, but I haven't read it yet. I think I will after seeing this movie now.

Anyway, the quote above is from the movie. The part that's bold is what really stuck out to me. Senator Dawes believed that by giving each Sioux family 160 acres of land, that it would make their lives better, even though the government was taking land away from them....and of course, they were taking the best land away.

The 160 acres was for the head of the household and his future generations. Think about that. The 160 acres was for the head of the household and his future generations. Most families have more than one kid. So, you even though 160 acres is a lot at first, you eventually have to divide that. And that means that after each generation, that 160 acres gets smaller and smaller and smaller. And the land  they were given was really poor. They couldn't farm it. Sitting Bull even pointed that out to both the Sioux and the white men who were there. That land was not going to sustain future generations.

Dawes said that if the Sioux would agree to sell their land and take these 160 acre parcels, then their lives would get better. They would not see their destruction. They would not see destitution. But I've been there. I've been to Pine Ridge, I've been to Wounded Knee. I spent 10 days living among and working with the Lakota Sioux of Pine Ridge, South Dakota. And Shannon County, South Dakota, where Pine Ridge is located, is the poorest county in the United States today. By selling their land, by taking the 160 acre parcels, by doing what the U.S. government said would benefit them, it made them destitute. It made them the very kind of people they were promised they would not become.

And watching this movie and seeing the massacre at Wounded Knee unfold.....it brought me to tears. I visited the mass grave where those who lost their lives in that massacre are buried. I thought it broke my heart then, but seeing the senseless massacre being depicted.....it really breaks my heart now. I'm still crying, and that part of the movie was over 10 minutes ago.

Despite everything that has happened to them, the Lakota are a proud people. They have not lost hope, they have not given up. And they have retained their sense of themselves, despite efforts to strip them of their identity and culture. I feel very blessed to have been able to go to South Dakota and meet some of these wonderful people and learn more about them. And even though in 1980 the U.S Supreme Court ruled that the taking of the Black Hills violated treaties signed with the Sioux, they refused to give the Black Hills, which is land that the Sioux consider sacred, back to them. They offered compensation instead. The Sioux have refused it. They still hold to their claim on the land, and even though the compensation is now worth over $600 million, they won't take it. I don't think they will ever take the money. Money is not what they want. They want the land that is rightfully theirs, land that was stolen from them. And I honestly can't blame them for wanting that.

Seeing this movie has definitely made me want to return to Pine Ridge at some point. I definitely want to take some more time to experience the culture and be around the Lakota again.

Tuesday, May 24, 2011

Shoes!!! :)

So, I have a big weakness. Shoes. I love shoes. I have over 30 pairs, and I don't know what I'm going to do when I have to move to Florida. I do know that my latest addition will be going with me. :)

These are the Women's AEO Knotted Sandal from American Eagle Outfitters. I saw these, and I fell in love. I have so many pairs of flip flops (and 2 more pairs have been ordered...), but no sandals. So, when I got a coupon (courtesy of Glamour magazine's Facebook page) for 30% off regular price footwear at AE, I had to take it. And then I saw these, and I fell in love! I ordered them last Friday, and they came today!!! Yay!!

Of course, the moment I got them, they had to be tried on.


Excuse my whiteness. I am completely aware that I need to tan. I will be working on that before Disney.

But anyway, I love the way these shoes fit! They're comfortable, and they fit so well. And they look great, too! I really didn't want to take them off.

Now I need to work on getting some blue jean shorts. These sandals would go great with blue jean shorts. :)

Open Letter

This is an open letter to someone who used to be one of my closest friends.

Dear "Anonymous":

I would just like to say thank you for continuing to want to be involved in my life after these last couple of years, even if you don't want me to know you're involved. It flatters me that, even though I was apparently a horrible friend to you, and you basically told me you didn't want anything to do with me anymore, that you still feel the need to keep up with my life.

And how's that working out for you? You remember when you told me that you felt that I wasn't moving forward, that I wasn't going anywhere? Still think that? Even though I just finished up an internship at a middle school, I just graduated college, I'm going to work for Disney and move out of the state, and I'm in a relationship with the same amazing guy I was with when you decided to end our friendship....do you still think that I'm not going anywhere? Just because I'm not living my life the way you are living yours, just because I'm doing things differently doesn't mean I'm not living my life to the fullest. I know what I want for me, and it's not the same things you want for yourself. And that's okay. That's how it's supposed to be. We are two different people.

A lot of things happened at the end of our friendship that you didn't let me explain, and I find that very unfair. So here's my side of the story. The reason why your family got involved was because they got themselves involved. Your sister called me that day. All the things that were said about your sister were things that she said to me. You know that I don't go around making stuff up.

However, I think you wanted to end our friendship for awhile, and since you could never be straight up about things, this was the best way you felt to end it. And I think that you thought it was okay. Well guess what? It wasn't, and it still isn't. You left a lot of pain, and I spent so much time trying to figure out what happened. But now I think I know. I think you wanted me to be like you, and when I wasn't, that irritated you. You couldn't control me, and you didn't like that. It ticked you off that I was independent and didn't feel the need to ask your approval of everything. And you know, maybe I'm wrong about all of that, but based on the things you said to me after the friendship ended, that's the only thing I can come up with. Either that, or you were jealous of me.

I hope you are having a great life. I really do. I've been doing great these last couple of years. I've finally figured out who my real friends are, and I've got so many opportunities opened up to me. I don't know why you're continuously reading my blogs; I don't know if you're jealous, just curious, or if you feel like you have to keep watch over me. If it's the latter, I don't need it. I don't need babysitting. I'm a big girl, and I'm perfectly capable of taking care of myself. If you're jealous, get over it and move on. And if you're just curious, that's fine. But at least make the effort to talk to me. Stop essentially stalking me. I really hate being stalked.

Do whatever you want to do with your life, and I hope you're happy.

-Amanda

Saturday, May 21, 2011

Yeah....I Pretty Much Love This Man

And I always have.

I've seriously crushed on this guy for as long as I crushed on my boyfriend. And for those of you that don't know that story, I've known my boyfriend for 12 years, and I've crushed on for that long. :p

 Oh Justin Timberlake, you were my first big huge celebrity crush. It was the curly hair, the smile, and that Southern charm. I have a huge weakness for those 3 things.

I mean, my room was covered in posters of him and the rest of the NSYNC guys.

 Sigh.

And he just keeps getting sexier. Mmm mmm mmm.

Gah....that smile. ♥ it.

Thursday, May 19, 2011

Sweetest Thing Ever



This happened at a movie theater not far from where I live. So, with it being a local story, that makes it even cooler to me. I think this guy was very sweet, especially in asking her father for his blessing.

However, if my boyfriend ever (and I do mean EVER) proposed to me in a public way like this, I would probably kill him. Just saying. :p

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

Love ♥

There's no combination of words
I could put on the back of a postcard
No song that I could sing
But I can try for your heart
Our dreams
And they are made out of real things
Like a shoebox of photographs
And sepia tone lovin'
Love is the answer
At least for most of the questions in my heart
Like why are we here?
And where do we go?
And how come it's so hard?
It's not always easy
And sometimes life can be deceiving
But I'll tell you one thing
It's always better when we're together
~"Better Together" by Jack Johnson
I am such a blessed and lucky girl. :)